For a long time, being acceptable and fitting in was synonymous with survival.
I tried to be the good Christian boy, the perfect employee, the son who caused no trouble, the person who fit the mold well enough that no one would question me too closely.
Inside it felt metaphorically and literally like hiding in a closet.
I did not come out as gay until my late twenties, not because, because I was terrified. I was afraid of losing my job. I was afraid of being hurt. I was afraid of losing my family, my community, and the life I knew.
So I kept performing, trying to be normal. But that kind of performance has a cost.
When you silence yourself long enough, you stop knowing where the performance ends and where you begin.
That was part of my depression. It was not only that I was hiding from other people. I was hiding from myself. I was going through the motions in places that were supposed to feel safe, and yet I wasn’t fully accepted, nor did I feel any safer.
The message delivers a truth that would have saved me from
a lot of pain. What makes you different is not the problem. What silences you is the problem.
It challenges us to stop calling our real self the mistake.
🌊 Lumer Council Message
We are the Lumer Council of the Lemurian Collective. It is such a joy and honor to be here with you as always.
There’s a time right now, a time of reckoning.
Don’t fret my dear ones, the reckoning is not for you.
It’s a reckoning of the negativity, the reckoning of the negativity that’s trying to bring you down. And by “bring you down”, that means to silence you.
There’s a negativity that has been around for ages that has been silencing you. Making you feel less than. Making you feel not normal.
My dear ones, you are not normal. And that is why you are precisely the perfect being you are.
Because what is normal? Normal for you may not be normal for someone else. If everybody’s normal was the same, wouldn’t that be boring!
We need uniqueness. We have been teaching this for a while now. We have been speaking to you about this.
What is unique? My dear ones, unique to you may be the “normal” to you, but it may be unique to others. That doesn’t make it less than. Oh, not at all, my dear ones.
Uniqueness is power. Uniqueness brings a variety of talents and gifts. A variety of powers that when joined together as a community, oh there is nothing you can’t do as a community. As a power of one. The power from the one Source.
You are part of a whole. You are a wonderful gift. You are that puzzle piece that fits. You are that strange cut of a puzzle piece that fits perfectly to form the full picture.
So here’s what we call of you now: Speak out.
By speak out, we don’t necessarily mean verbally. It can be through actions, through your motions, through your thoughts.
Connect with your true self. Bring that forward. Bring you forward.
You can begin doing this in the privacy of your own home, in the privacy of wherever you feel safe. My dear ones, if you don’t feel safe with yourself, you won’t feel safe anywhere else.
So here is our challenge for you. Are you able to sit quietly and go inward? Inward into yourself?
Many of you have already learned to do this. But there is no limit to where you can go. Because withinside yourself is the Universe, vast Universe. So much to explore with this wondrous Universe of you.
Those of you who are just beginning, it’s a grand adventure. Take the first steps within.
Calm yourself with a deep breath. Let your thoughts wander. You do not even need to listen to those thoughts. Focus on your inner self.
You will know yourself when you’re there. You will recognize yourself because it’s simple. You are yourself. That’s all this is. It’s very simple actually.
But it’s difficult for many, because it goes against the false “norm”. To take time for yourself? Isn’t that selfish?
Oh no, not one bit. Taking time for yourself is taking time to connect with the Universe, with Source. And through doing that, you are connecting with everyone and everything else.
And once that connection is made, you are so much more able and clearly skilled to connect with others.
But to do this in a positive way, to bring the light and expose the negativity, you must connect with yourself, which is Source.
For negativity will keep you down and keep you silent until the light of you exposes it. The negativity cannot handle the light.
Be gentle with the negative thoughts, however. This is not a battle. This is recognition. This is exposure. This is shining your light.
For the negativity that comes at you, if you recognize it for what it is, you will have so much more information about why you’ve done the things you’ve done. Both the positive and the negative.
And that will empower you to go forth even more strongly. As you.
In Love and Light.
🌀 Taking It In
When you keep asking, “What version of me will feel safest here?” you can slowly lose touch with yourself.
The negativity they speak of is not always dramatic. Sometimes it feels like self-protection. Sometimes it’s people-pleasing. Sometimes it sounds like, “Don’t say that,” “Don’t wear that,” “Don’t admit that,” “Don’t be too much.”
If we edit ourselves long enough, that voice can start to sound wise.
I did that for years. I thought I was being responsible, mature, and faithful. I thought performance would keep me safe.
For a time, it did.
But performance can protect you for a season. It cannot sustain you, and it cannot make you whole.
My turning point came when the pain of hiding became greater than the fear of being known. I came out, and I moved to a place where I could live more honestly.
That change was not easy. Some of the losses I feared did happen. I lost relationships, including friends and family. I also lost the version of life I thought was supposed to make me successful.
But I found something I could not have found while pretending. I found myself.
Once I began living more honestly, my life changed. I started attracting different people, different work, and different possibilities.
I found people who did not merely tolerate me, but accepted me. I found places that did not demand performance, but made room for my real self.
My life became more abundant, not because everything got easy, but because it finally became real.
That is part of why this message matters so much to me. Uniqueness is not a flaw to manage. It is part of how we contribute to the whole.
A community does not grow stronger by flattening everyone into sameness. It grows stronger when each person brings their real gifts and real voice.
I also appreciate that the Council does not frame this as a war. They do not say to attack every fearful thought. They say to recognize it. To expose it with light.
That matters to me. We do not need more conflict in the name of growth. We need honesty.
When we hide who we are, the loss is not only personal. The world also loses access to the particular light, insight, care, and presence we were meant to bring.
The more honestly we live, the more clearly we can connect with others, contribute our real gifts, and weaken the negativity that depends on silence, shame, and disconnection.
🔄 SimpleShift
1. Go inward first.
Go somewhere you feel safe enough to be with yourself.
Calm yourself with a deep breath.
2. Settle your mind.
Let your thoughts wander. You do not even need to listen to those thoughts. Focus on your inner self.
Just keep bringing your attention inward.
3. Notice when you feel most like yourself.
Wait for a moment.
You will know yourself when you’re there. You will recognize yourself because it’s simple. You are yourself.
4. Ask yourself these two questions:
What in me have I been silencing?
What feels truly me beneath the pressure to be “normal”?
Do not force the answers. Let them reveal themselves.
5. Practice recognition, not battle.
If a negative thought rises up, do not argue with it.
Instead, say: This is not my truth. This is something I’ve learned to carry.
Then return your attention to the place underneath it.
6. Bring one thing forward today.
Choose one small action you can take today to let your real self come forward.
It could be:
saying what you actually want
not hiding a real feeling
stopping an automatic yes
not apologizing for a preference
choosing not to shrink in one moment
Finish this sentence: Today, I will bring my real self forward by __________.
This is not selfish. It is connection.
Join the Conversation
How do you think being more fully yourself can bring more light, honesty, or healing into the world around you?
The more clearly you connect with yourself, the more clearly you can connect with others.
